MY STORY, PART THREE: Do not women deserve pleasure?

I have now been sexually active for almost 7 years. That is if you only count partnersex as a sexual activity. I have also been with somewhere between 20-25 partners during this time. This makes me think I have a pretty just picture of reality.

My four first reationships were sexually unsatisfying, but since I had been able to masturbate to orgasm since age 10 and tried to tell my partners what worked for me, I ruled out myself as the problem. The only possible reason there was for my unsatisfaction, i assumed, was due to bad luck. Many other women seemed to be with guys who actually wanted to give them pleasure. But you know what? I'm starting to think they're all liars.

In january, after breaking up with my fourt boyfriend, whom I'd been together with during four years, I thought I'd find myself someone who cared about what I felt, but in almost every case it failed, and I could summarize my 25-ish partners like this:

80% were only thinking about themselves. and had no interest in either touching, licking or any form of foreplay. If they did it it was because they felt like they had to or because I asked them to, but some of those men refused even after being asked to and instructed in how, and came with stupid excuses about how it was "too wet and nasty" "That they had no idea how to do" and so on.

16% seemed genuinly interested in giving me a good time, but had no clue how the female body works. The ony place they were interested in was my vagina. Well, atleast mostly. Simply put: they thought our bodies were the same, just looking different.

4%. That equals one person. 1out of 25 men gave me something in return, and he had some knowledge about what to do. It may not have been perfect, and I'd prefered more. Some licking and some touching, even with the right technique isn't enough, but atleast he'd been listening to previous partners, observant in what they felt and enjoyed, and if I begged him to do something atleast he tried.

Now don't take this too seriously. These percentages for sure are not accurate. I didn't sleep with people to research their behaviours, I did it to feel pleasure. The numbers above only represents what I feel, and right now they make me feel very pessimistic. Is it too much to ask for some massage in return for all the blow jobs, jerk-offs and throathfucks? Apparently it is.