MY STORY, PART TWO: Total Euphoria

FIRST A WARNING: Parents and other people who do not wish to know about my sexual experiences should ignore that this post even exists.

The reason I'm writing about it so openly is, as some of you may have figured out already, because I stand for an open society where people can be themselves, without any taboos or censoring of natural and non harmful material.

SO: As most kids, I was curious about stuff, and quite an explorer when it comes to the human body when I grew up - especially the mysterious parts that no one talked about unless as a tool for childbirth.

I played with my body, sometimes with my friends, totally unaware of the sexual aspects of it - but I'm glad I did. Children are explorers after all and they learn everything having to do with adult lives. At age 10 I remember laying in my bed having my hand between my legs. I remember a tingling feeling and the desire of something more. As I rolled over to my right side and tensed my legs - there it was: The "Something more sensation". I didn't know that what I was doing was called masturbating. Neither did I have any Idea of how normal it was or that I'd just reached an orgasm.

As I grew older i kept to this technique: Laying on my right side and tensing my legs and butt so much I sometimes got a cramp in my calf: Because I knew what was coming. That great , almost electric feeling.

When I grew up and got into puberty and learned about sex and pleasure - I realised that I was more or less alone with this technique, but I still took pride in it - being able to even achieve and orgasm unlike many other women, although my way was a bit wierd and needed a lot of work.

Now take not that everything I write about is about clitoral orgasms, not vaginal orgasms. Atleast I've got those going for me, which is nice.

Lately though; I've found myself caught in it. Some months ago I realised that I will never be able to reach a clitoral orgasm during intercourse this way - not by penetrating sex, not by oral sex, not by me or someone else rubbing myself - and this was quite a bummer since this was not only the fastest, but the ONLY way for me to finish.

But- then me and my boyfriend broke up and as I got out of the sexual misery and the words "I just don't have the will to make it pleasurable for you" I realised that was part of even my alone time-problems. The turning point you see, was when I met a fuckbuddy from the internet. Instead of feeling like a burden during sex - my pleasure was in the centre. A stranger of all men possible, was the first one to give me a clitoral orgasm - with only his fingers. And I didn't even have to lay on my side and tense as much.

After our meeting I felt relieved. I achieved something that day that I'd longed for several years. and it made me hopeful about not being stuck with one technique. Since then I've had a positive feeling about exploring new ways, and the best part is that I've achieved orgasm several times just by laying on my back and letting my vibrator do the job instead of my legs. That's what gives me total euphoria!

P.S. When tensing my butt and legs I smothered the feeling, and now with this new technique they are stronger. :D